All New Lows.
I’m beginning to obsess now. Charlie is the new victim of my affections.
A bit of Facebook stalking, a lot of ‘should I text him first? No, I might be annoying him. He’ll text me if he wants to talk’ is going on.
It’s starting to become undeniable. I’m far to involved in Charlie. And it’s all wrong! He lives too far away, he hardly ever comes to visit. We spent one night snuggling together and now this! One show of affection from a boy and I melt into a pile of goo, a little puppy wanting to follow them around. It’s pathetic.
I’ve been thinking about him far too much. All the ‘What ifs’. What if we did date, what would that be like? What if we do just become friends with benefits, what will that be like? What if he’s the one I lose my virginity to?
I’m seriously deluded. He pretty much layed down the law before he got horny and decided to make things super confusing. Dating, at least at this point in both our lives, not an option.
Do you hear that brain? Not an option.
I’m angry at myself for not being able to control my emotions, for being able to see the logic but not reach it. For being a love starved loser who everyone wants for one night and one night only. I’m cool for a drunken hook-up but not for a relationship. FML.
Self-esteem = Rather low tonight. Can you tell?
Maybe I can sleep it off and tomorrow will be a wonderful day. Here’s hoping.
Delilah out!
0Like a Train Wreck
My love life just took the hugest of nose dives, from confusing to really fucking confusing.
